Monday, May 23, 2011

Malaysian and Madison Girl at Heart

(hanging out by the lake)

i love studying here, in Madison.

i never feel like i'm studying whenever i have to do my readings. maybe because they're really interesting. enlightening. or maybe it's because i'm a nerd.

it could be both.

but whatever, i don't care.

(soup and Kabul Restaurant)

i love every single thing about this place.

i like the fact that madioson isn't a big arse city like the NYC.

i like how everything is so...within reach.

i like how the chancellor allows and more importantly, encourages political participation. despite their political stand.

i think that is really important. when you have both sides actively moving political discourse, it not only stimulates thinking, but it leads to change. abrupt change may not be good but if there's more than just one side talking, then you you're constantly thinking of ways to make things better.

(stuffed artichoke)

i'm probably not making any sense, as usual.

did i tell you how much i love my teachers here?

i really feel like they really know what they're talking about. their stands on certain things may not be right, but that's up to the student. whether or not they want to accept what their teacher is saying. i don't mind hearing other peoples' ideas. i think it's important in molding my own framework.

(lamb couscous)

i know for a fact that they really take teaching seriously. most of my teachers really want their students to learn. to gain knowledge. and go through so much just to make sure we understand what we're learning. i love them. really, i do. they really inspire me to become good educators in the future. (apart from getting inspiration from my own parents, of course!)

take the good and leave the bad.

ambil yang jernih, buang yang keruh.


of course, i don't feel like i could assimilate into the mainstream american culture. i feel uncomfortable going to parties because i don't like big crowds (i feel like i cant breathe and im afraid people are gonna step on me). obviously, i dont drink. i have a number of friends who take me out to places and we have a good time. of course, american life isnt just about parties. i think i'm able to connect with many of my colleagues but because i don't really hang out with them, i don't have that extra bond. my collagues are very nice people and i do love them. it's just that i wish they could see the fun crazy side of me that my close friends are able to see. usually, it takes a long time for me to warm up to people. i'm usually shy, and reserved. so yeah, there are plenty of reasons why i don't think i will fully assimilate.

(wen li <3)

but can a person really do that?

fully assimilate in a different culture? we share many of the same values but the differences are there. and sometimes it is the differences that make the difference.

i'm a malaysian + muslim girl at heart.

i hope as time passes, my colleagues and i will have a stronger bond.

i hope we'll learn from each other. from different cultures.